Blah, Blah, Bad Blogger

I know, I know I have been a bad blogger lately.  But I have HONESTLY been so busy.  I am working a new business and basically my internet fun like Blogging and Facebooking have been put on hold along with watching TV at night.  Some things have to give, and that is the bottom line. 

I kinda can’t wait for March to be over.  I am not sure why.  The month started off really well.  But this week has not been so great.  I have a really nice Saturday and Sunday planned, so let’s hope that brings a change to the pace of the week. 

I have still been busy with my business.. and that is going good still.  But I have been working my butt off and not exactly getting the support from home that I would like to get.    I won’t go into that.  On top of that, I have also had a really rough week about my Mom for some reason.  I have no idea.  It really came to a head on Tuesday, which is ironic cause that is the day she passed.  And I often find myself breaking down on a Tuesday and not realizing it until later in the day.  But, I guess it just came to my senses that it has been 6 MONTHS since she passed!  6 MONTHS… geez!  that is a half a year.  Ok, I know you can all do the math on that.  For some reason on Tuesday I just suddenly yearned to see her again, and to hear her voice.  A really BAD yearning.  Something I had not felt in a long time.  She just really kept popping into my thoughts and head ALL day. 

Ok, well enough about that.   I have been doing my training for the 3 day.  The first night I got on the treadmill was Tuesday.  AND, the treadmill sucks.  Iti is an old treadmill that has been carted around 3 too many times!  So, as I am walking, the belt is just going from 2.5- 3.3  to 2.2 etc.  SO I really have no idea what speed I was going.  I also therefore have no idea if it is tracking my miles accurately.  THEN on top of it all, it just gets REALLY stuffy and I swear it smells like something is burning around me.  I thought maybe I was crazy, but I could really feel the stuffy-ness in my chest.  Well, when DJ came downstairs for a sec, he turned up his nose and said, it smells like the belt is burning.    REAL nice.  SO, this kinda puts a bit of a damper in my training….I purposely signed up knowing I had that darn treadmill, so it would make training easier.  When I get to the long miles, like 15 or 18 miles a day.  The bottom line is that I am going to have to do some of those miles inside on that treadmill.  I do not enough time throughout the day to do all those miles outside with the kiddos.  SO, I am thinking I may need to spend my first paycheck from my new business on a new treadmill.  But, that money is supposed to be going towards paying bills.  UGH. 

I went out walking tonight, and it was FREEZING!!  BUT, it certainly does feel good to be moving! 

The funniest thing about my training, is that with my second pregnancy I have no idea what the deal was, but I would get SUPER tired out, from the littlest bit of excursion.  SO on Tuesday when I headed into my 3rd mile of my walk, I started to feel tired and breathy.  Then I remembered, this is how I felt when PG with Cam if I would walk from the couch to the kitchen!  I mean honestly, I was walking around everyday, every minute, like I had just spent 45 minutes walking fast paced on a treadmill.  Ridiculous!  Good thing that Cam is so darn cute.  It was worth it!! 

I am reading The Secret, and I am loving this book!  I am THINKING POSITIVE thoughts.  Which is actually pretty hard with many of the negative people I have around me in my life.  But I am a work in progress, and I am doing my best to brush off negative comments.  It feels good. 

Ok, I think I just blabbed enough.  This is what happens when I do not blog for a while.  You get these random, unstructured posts from me.

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